narrow

"Enter by the narrow gate;
for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction,
And there are many who go in by it. (So don't follow the crowd, follow your Shepherd the One who's love for you is stronger then death!)

"Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life,
and there are few who find it." Matthew 7: 13-14

Take His path... you will find that the difficulties are but an opportunity to experience His nearness, to become more aquainted with His everpresent guiding hand, to be awakened moreso to the beauty of His counternance, to know the magnitude of Jesus love for you His precious One in whom He loves deeply. Be one of the few in this story be found upon the path which has entered through the narrow gate.

unseen beauty...

The other day i was going for a walk to one of my favourite places back here. Up the headland and then to the beach.

While sitting and pondering with the LORD... i couldn't help but be drawn to the many shells that where at my

feet. All broken in some way but all seemed to me to be beautiful... the textures... the colours... the shapes... all beautiful.

Then i was just saying to Jesus how can it be that even in brokenness something can be so beautiful? And He answered me... that is what I think of you... these are My thoughts towards you... yes you are broken... but you are beautiful to Me.

Sometimes it's hard to think that in brokenness you can be found beautiful... but Jesus showed me that in His eyes this is a truth... we are beautiful to Him.

i am convinced that what i have been called to do by God is more significant then we know...

A Intercessory Missionary.

Who would have thought....
but as i travel and see and feel what is happening in the nations, (now in Australia), i am confident that we need God! In fact more then need... without Him we are but hopeless, running to and fro with no purpose but to get through each day and perhaps if we are 'lucky' we may actually smile at one point. Jesus never wanted us to simply survive life, Abba never intended for His children to wade through water not knowing how to swim barely breathing...

We where made to encounter the most High God moment by moment.

To be captured by His beauty and find overwhelming delight in all of Him. He created you and me to enjoy Him. To laugh with Him... to cry with Him... to share His heart with us and share all He owns with us and all we are with Him... EVERY MOMENT of EVERY DAY... He longs to be with us... to share life with us, ALL of life... but more then that He wants to give us ABUNDANCE in doing this.... the abundance & magnitude of who He is in us....that we would meet Him... talk with Him... share emotions... and stories with Him.

i know without my Maker my life is of no worth... without His presence... i am lost...

My prayer with Jesus today is that we all would be with Him where He is... we would know the longings of His heart... His tenderness towards us... His burning affections for us.... that His words would enter our hearts this day and reveal once more the length, the depth, the height and the width of His love for us, His beloved bride.

"Father, this is My desire that those who You have given Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory which You have given Me"

May the Holy Spirit open our eyes moreso today to the magnitude of Jesus love for us...
His Bride.

Come LORD Jesus Come.

it's my brothers birthday tomorrow..

he turns 30.

that definatly feels not so real... i guess it will be true tomorrow.

as you can see above i love my brother and i am happy to be here to celebrate his life tomorrow... well even today... everyday.

i thank God for giving me Jamie as my brother.

i pray that he would know the love of the Father, the love of Jesus, the ever present leading of the Holy Spirit... and the reality of the goodness of God towards him.

if you're reading this please pray for him... a birthday gift that would not go unheard by God.

ALWAYS FAITHFUL!!!

As the hour draw near to my departure date, a few realities set in that i didn't want to think about and some of my fears that had been hiding became evident as Holy Spirit revealed these areas of my heart.

Abba, in His goodness towards me, did not just want to leave these fears unveiled but He wanted to set His truth into my heart and give His peace to me.

i remember a few days before leaving, i was afraid of travelling alone. That night in the prayer room i knew i needed to be real about this before Abba, and ask Him to help me... more then anything at that time i knew i needed to trust who He was and place this into His hands knowing He would care for this. That night i was woken from my sleep, i knew it was the LORD He wanted to talk with me. Normally i am not the quickest at waking up but my spirit and mind was clear and alert when He woke me.

As the LORD began to speak into my spirit, i was aware of His might and power, He spoke three simple lines...

'Why fear? For I WILL be with you.

Why fear? For I AM going with you.

Why fear? For I AM coming with you.'

These words caused this fear and concern i had to flee... it had no chance to cause havic with in my heart or mind. I remember saying 'thank You LORD... WOW you certainly answered my cry quickly.' I awoke the next morning confident that i had nothing to fear for God WAS, IS and WILL BE with me.

Still a fox was to be found lingering within my heart, but my Maker my Husband was not going to let it destroy the work of His hand.

I was scared of leaving the safe place i was in, the safe and loving community i had found myself in... the Holy Spirit revealed to me that i was afraid of leaving this place for an extended season... He showed me a picture of my hands. They were holding tightly onto something, causing my knuckles to go white, for i was afraid to let go and leave this community. Jesus moved quickly to answer my questions and set at ease my heart. He sent someone to pray for me, a faithful friend and sister, in her prayer she answered all the questions i had only a few minutes earlier asked the LORD... only He had heard these cry's of my heart... i knew He was answering me and setting at ease my heart once more.

He spoke to me that He was the One who lead me to this family, into this sanctuary and that He would lead me to pools of water in the desert, He would place people beside me as He did here. I had failed to recognise that He was the One who had provided for me here... both physically and spiritually. He had cared for me and tended to the needs of my heart and that He would be the One to refresh me, sustain me and love upon me, He would care for me as i went from this place.

In His lovingkindness He was causing me to see and know that He was and is my security, SECURE IN CHRIST ALONE. Therefore i am in the safest place in Him... leading me each step... my foot in His footprint... i am in Him... safe and secure in Him.

SO where am i going?

Hey Everyone...

Through this blog you'll be able to track with me as i head off on this adventure with God.

I plan on letting my life be an open book, so to speak, for most of this trip. 

And as i see i will write and as God reveals i will type.

I believe God not only wants to speak to me on this trip but also many of you... and I believe He will give me stories not only for myself but also to speak to others... maybe somethings won't even really make sense to me... but that's because it's for one of you. 

My hearts desire is that i would know my Maker my Husband more, that i would know the heart of the Father more and that i would be sensitive to the leading of His precious Holy Spirit, being in constant fellowship with Him.

My prayer is that we all would be awakened an a greater level to know the fullness of God... to know Him intimately and to walk close to Him... this is my prayer for us all.

So i invite you to join me on this journey of greater awakening in to the heart of our King, Jesus Christ, the Jewish Man from Nazareth... God who walked this very earth to reveal His heart for us all.

My Trip begins right here in Tauranga, New Zealand but will soon lead me across many waters, through lands i have yet known, into the heart of many, but most of all i will be lead by the hand of my King.

i hope you will be stirred to seek God out more and more, while He still may be found.

in the waiting

Fifteen days until i leave this cosy, yet at times uncomfortable, dwelling that i have come to grow and love. So until then i find myself in the waiting... realising there is much to be either gained or lost while waiting... and sometimes both. i have decided i would rather gain a greater intimacy in knowing my Maker and i am ok with loosing all that stands in the way of this knowing. i would rather loose all, then waste my time running ahead of all that God has for me right here right now.

So i wait. 

i listen. and i watch.

And already He has eased my heart with His gentle loving arm, catching some foxes i allowed back into my heart... those little fears... the ones if left a while can destroy much of the work the LORD has done in my weak heart. Once again He reveals His love for me... the Faithful love that cuts away and captures all that hinders growth in Him.

Now my hearts at ease learning moment by moment to rest in Him, to trust in His unfailing love.

Yes there are still things to do, but i am no longer allowing those cares to consume me, for i am learning to direct my concerns to the One who cares for me most. i am learning that Jesus wants to take control of these things for me. And once again i find myself growing in love with my Maker... how could it be this God who became a Man, walked the earth to reveal His love for me... served me in every possible way yet still in such meekness He comes to serve. 

What love is this? God became a Man and died for me... rising again to intervene by prayer this very day on behalf of me and you... the King who came to serve... meek in everyway... 

What love is this? 

a love not of this world... nor of this age... or spirit... but one of holiness, of purity, of eternal value... bringing forth life in every way. This is the Love i want to know.