in the waiting

Fifteen days until i leave this cosy, yet at times uncomfortable, dwelling that i have come to grow and love. So until then i find myself in the waiting... realising there is much to be either gained or lost while waiting... and sometimes both. i have decided i would rather gain a greater intimacy in knowing my Maker and i am ok with loosing all that stands in the way of this knowing. i would rather loose all, then waste my time running ahead of all that God has for me right here right now.

So i wait. 

i listen. and i watch.

And already He has eased my heart with His gentle loving arm, catching some foxes i allowed back into my heart... those little fears... the ones if left a while can destroy much of the work the LORD has done in my weak heart. Once again He reveals His love for me... the Faithful love that cuts away and captures all that hinders growth in Him.

Now my hearts at ease learning moment by moment to rest in Him, to trust in His unfailing love.

Yes there are still things to do, but i am no longer allowing those cares to consume me, for i am learning to direct my concerns to the One who cares for me most. i am learning that Jesus wants to take control of these things for me. And once again i find myself growing in love with my Maker... how could it be this God who became a Man, walked the earth to reveal His love for me... served me in every possible way yet still in such meekness He comes to serve. 

What love is this? God became a Man and died for me... rising again to intervene by prayer this very day on behalf of me and you... the King who came to serve... meek in everyway... 

What love is this? 

a love not of this world... nor of this age... or spirit... but one of holiness, of purity, of eternal value... bringing forth life in every way. This is the Love i want to know.