Confronted

i have been confronted ALOT of late... more i guess by the reality that GOD is GOD... He's Sovereign and well i am not i am simply dust or bone... Therefore i am truly humbled that Jesus the complete or perfect One of full deity and power of all powers having no restrictions other then the truth of who He is, that of His nature and character, became out of His own will, out of His love, out of His compassion, His mercy, His loving kindness, His goodness and faithfulness... in the fullness of truth He came and put on the bonds of flesh becoming even an unborn fetus in the womb of Mary... where He gave up His freedom of the use of His power so to speak and entrusted His Father with His life, only using this power when His Father gave it to Him from on high. 

Jesus fully God became COMPLETELY Man.

He knows the pains we go through in our weak human state, He knows the emotions we feel, He knows the joys as well as the sorrows for He too felt the effect of weak flesh... yet still He did not sin. He was tempted in every way yet still He did not sin. 

He knows. 

Yeshua, the Jesus Christ, a Jewish Man... who was in His Fathers Kingdom- a perfect Kingdom the greatest Kingdom filled with the fullness of life of love of joy of delight... the glorified state of smell, taste, sounds, sights, and textures in a completely pure, perfect, holy way. Yet He was sent with His Fathers blessing so that we could also enter into the fullness of His Fathers joy. For we were created by God to walk with Him in the beauty of His holiness revealed in all that was created...

Then in our weakness, in our complete lack, sin entered.... for ALL have fallen short of the glory of God, we ALL are in need of salvation which can only come through ONE that is the ONLY MAN who walked the earth and DID NOT SIN, even though He was tempted in every way. 

Therefore we see He is the only pure and spotless who could be sacrificed, He is the only ONE who could bear the judgement of sin which is death. 

Yeshua, fully Man yet fully God, was led to the slaughter like a silent lamb. 

He went not kicking and screaming... which i often do when Abba Father is disciplining me- O Lord forgive me for i do not truly know the effect of sin, the complete death and destruction in which sin has not only upon me but on all around- for all creation waits and groans for You O Lord to come Judge sin.

Lord Jesus, Yeshua would You help me...

Help me to see the true reality of sin... that it is not pleasure... it is death and destruction... in the fullest state of death... eternal... this one You created to walk with You in the beauty of Your holiness to be loved by You and to love You... sin cuts me completely from You for You are a Holy God... the only way i become holy is by Your blood which covers me... the way i begin to walk into the fullness of this reality is by another generous gift You have given Your precious Holy Spirit working in me to bring about a completed one ready to stand face to face with her Holy God, her Father, her Husband to stand before You both in holiness. So thank You Abba Father for You are so good to me, to us, You are so merciful and kind sending Your very Holy Spirit revealing the beautiful and terrifying mysteries of Your promise to us Your chosen, revealed to many prophets of old seen in Your very word, the Bible which You have made accessible to us.

Abba Father, our glorious Father, would You give to us revelation by Your ever present Holy Spirit of the truth of sin and death the truth of covenant Your holy blood making atonement bringing me into life eternal life into a beautiful Kingdom into the loving arms of my Holy Father... Help me Yeshua, help us to see what You have done, help us to know that even right now You are pouring Your heart out in intercession to Your Father on our behalf... Help us Holy Spirit that we would know the depth, the height, the length and the width... the fullness of our Makers love for us.

 

Help us LORD for we are weak but You are strong.

Sometimes...

i want to scream it from the rooftops...

i

LOVE

JESUS

SO

MUCH

!!!!!!!!

and He is in love with me.

"i belong to my Beloved, and His desire is for me."

song of songs 7:10

Merciful Maker

Today i was overwhelmed by the mercy of God... i mean this is GOD the HOLY GOD of Israel... 

HOLY in every way, 

PERFECT in every way, 

WISE in every way, 

GOOD in every way, 

RIGHTEOUS in every way, 

KIND in every way... 

well there is not enough pages upon the face of the earth or ink to write all of who God is and to be honest with you i have no idea of the fullness of who God is but what He has revealed is well i am speechless. 

This morning God wanted to remind me and reveal to me His mercy... i don't want to write this is a non shalaunt way, (ok i was super bad at english so you're gunna have to over look my lack, sorry), so please just let the weight of this rest upon you as you read and i pray that Abba would give to you His Spirit of Wisdom and Revelation so that He may reveal this to you, cause i know this isnt gunna come out right... so hang in there... or better yet get your bible turn to Hebrews 4:15-16 and sit at Jesus feet for a while and let Him by His Spirit speak some truth into your heart this day/night.

"For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathise with our weaknesses, but was tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need."

Jesus, the great High Priest, has yet again given this weak heart strength and heard my faint cry for help. i am in awe and totally in love with my Merciful Maker.

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"Stay strong in Me, My child, let us go on again" her Father replied to His weakened daughter as she came asking His help... "how can i go on?" .

This was my hearts cry as i sat in a quiet place the LORD had given me after much turmoil and many battles the world had thrown at me.. although i was weak He was my strength and once again in His Faithfulness He lead me to a place of refreshment after times of wilderness and the heat of the desert was becoming to much almost giving up, again He strengthened me and provided a place for me to rest a while and regain my strength, restoring this weary soul.

Never once have i felt in danger. He is my Protector and even when i was without a bed spending the night in a train station i never once felt fearful or in danger, for He was with me and lead me through the night in safety... He had called me to the night watch and strengthened my tired body with His peace and presence... teaching me once more how to pray for His people the ones He created. the ones He loves, the ones He longs to know Him as He knows them... so as the day became night the LORD spoke of His heart for the nation i was in and the people that are within her walls.

Again He revealed His love for me and those around me.

Father speak to Your people, send Your Spirit that they may know this love that You have always revealed to us throughout the ages even sending Your very Son. Jesus hear the cry of Your bride... how long? when will You return? send forth Your word and touch hearts this hour in every nation in every people group... God Your size in far beyond any boundary or border of time and space... Come LORD would You come.... rend hearts and come down... Hoöly Spirit awaken hearts this day to the the knowledge of Jesus Christ Yeshua our LORD and Saviour our Bridegroom who loves us with an everlasting love beyond time and space... awaken us to the love of our Heavenly Father... the One who longs for the fullness of His family... call forth our family call forth those chosen from the begining of creation.... Come LORD COME!

i am alive

hey everyone.... just a short email to say sorry for the broken communication.

it seems that blogging is not working as i had planned, so i am afraid i will most probably not be posting many more... well at least not as frequently.#

i am currently in Ireland... extremely green here.

i leave on the 15th for England once more just for the night then i catch the train to France i will be for 3 days then onto our friends in Germany for around ten days or so.

I fly back to England on the 30th July for 3 days then onto Israel... where i am to be for 20days. This is a place i am intrgued to see... also am looking forward to spending time in there prayer room.....

From Israel to Thailand for 9 days then back to Oz for a few weeks to spend time with family and friends before returning home to New Zealand... this should be around mid september.

Well friends and family i will try post again but forgive me if this does nott happen.

love you all much
xoxooxo
Nikki

Sunday in Wenatchee...

To taste and see the beauty of the LORD
from nation to nation, city to town,
no matter what family or people group, time or season...

To be awakened day by day
to the eternal greatness of our LORD and Saviour Jesus Christ.

To allow the love of our heavenly Father
access to our hearts,

As He is revealed by His Holy Spirit
In the knowing of His Son Jesus,
whom loves in an ever present way.
Whispering words of truth into my heart.
Of His holy powerful love.

Allowing my eyes to see His longings,
The love for us revealed in everything created by His hand.
Allowing my ears to hear the gentle whispers
of His thoughts towards us_ the desires of my Beloved's heart.

Pure in every way,
Passionate beyond measure.

From the adornment of colour upon each waking day,
to the fragrance of love found in a tendered garden,
to the peaceful breeze, which gently rests for a moment upon my sun soaked skin,
filled with the echo's of summer's delight...
a bird's song, children's laughter, the constant sound of a sprinkler set upon freshly cut grass...

All causing joy in my spirit and a song in my heart
for the One who created this for my enjoyment, to meet with Him.

As i sit still before my Beloved His smile is so clear to me,
as i enjoy Him, and He enjoys me.
i am filled with a sigh of delight.

It is by grace and His loving power
that i have come to know...
that He is no longer my Master,
but He is my Husband,
my Maker and my Friend.

This i know He'll never leave me,
for His love it never ends.

His desire is towards me,
Moreso each day i see
that i have been set upon His heart...

Not by obligation or by guilt,
but by choice and His deep love for me.

His fiery love is as strong as death,
He has revealed it throughout the ages.
For my Maker, my Husband
He is a jealous God...
Revealed to all creation.

For He has chosen us to be His bride.

Allow your eyes to be opened,
and your heart to know,
For His Spirit to bring wisdom,
Revealing your Bridegroom's Holy Passionate love.

So come LORD fill our hearts with a love song,
That our lips may sing back to You.
Envelop our eyes with Your beauty,
And opur ears with Your gentle kisses of truth.
That we may be awakened
to the knowledge and delight in You.

Let me sit at Your feet and hear the secrets of Your heart,
Let my eyes behold the truth,
Let me recieve the good part.

For You are the I AM, the I WAS, and the I WILL ALWAYS BE,
You are God who is love,
God who is jealous for Your bride to be.

So i am choosing to stop doing,
all things i think should be done,

and simply start being
and enjoying my Bridegroom's love.

Filled with promise are the bright glowing beams of a rainbow... proclaiming the goodness of our Maker and His ever present mercy He shows towards us... such lovingkindness shown each day.




The awesome work of our Creator revealed even in the smallest of detail each having been placed there with intention... the Master at work enjoying creating with such delight.



Gazing through a small rectangle window, watching the tarmac disappear and beautiful shades of blue appear then fade into shades of pink as the horizon dissappeared and night became event i sat pondering the wonder of God and His creations... that seemed to praise Him all the more be it through voice or beams of light i also sat in awe of my Maker.

Leaving one nation heading to another i began to ask the LORD what is was He had for me to do during my time in the states, what my 'commission' was so to speak.

Earlier the Holy Spirit had highlighted some things to me... from a magazine a picture of a father and son- joyful, loving, caring... delighted in one another. A man in front of me on the plane with his son only a baby... again such joy and delight.

So i was asking the Lord what should i do now? What am i to pray for?

Clearly and gently, and joy in my spirit placed there by the Holy Spirit, i heard "Enjoy Me, delight in Me, Enjoy ME."

I was so overwhelmed.

I had already seen that there was a job to do and that i was on 'task' mode, but my Maker had a few other plans up His sleeve.

He reminded me of His promise and His ever powerful words He has spoken to us...

Trust in the LORD and do good;

dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

Delight yourself in the LORD

and He will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the LORD;

trust in Him and He will do this:

He will make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun.

Psalm 37: 3-6

I have a feeling this trip is going to look a little different then what i intended... but exactly what Jesus wants... and to tell you the truth deep down what i want too_

TO DELIGHT IN HIM... Jesus the One i love... the One i trust... He will lead me... Good, enjoyable, safe pastures with the One i love and who loves me.... SERIOUSLY how good is that!!!!!!!!!

OPEN OUR EYES LORD TO SEE THE BEAUTY AND WONDER THAT YOU PLACE BEFORE US EACH DAY, THE PLACE YOU LEAD US TO ENJOY WITH YOU EACH DAY... THANKYOU LORD.

quick update...

upon leaving Australia i found out that my computer was unable to get fixed before my trip...
Jesus revealed to me this was another comfort tha i was clinging to which i should be ultimately clinging to Him.

Therefore bare with me if my posts aren't as constant as i had originally intended.

Also upon arrival here in the state i felt the LORD wanted me to Himself for a while... this was a good thing... i'm sure you all can appreciate that as i am sure He has also set times aside for you like that and will continue to do so.

narrow

"Enter by the narrow gate;
for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction,
And there are many who go in by it. (So don't follow the crowd, follow your Shepherd the One who's love for you is stronger then death!)

"Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life,
and there are few who find it." Matthew 7: 13-14

Take His path... you will find that the difficulties are but an opportunity to experience His nearness, to become more aquainted with His everpresent guiding hand, to be awakened moreso to the beauty of His counternance, to know the magnitude of Jesus love for you His precious One in whom He loves deeply. Be one of the few in this story be found upon the path which has entered through the narrow gate.

unseen beauty...

The other day i was going for a walk to one of my favourite places back here. Up the headland and then to the beach.

While sitting and pondering with the LORD... i couldn't help but be drawn to the many shells that where at my

feet. All broken in some way but all seemed to me to be beautiful... the textures... the colours... the shapes... all beautiful.

Then i was just saying to Jesus how can it be that even in brokenness something can be so beautiful? And He answered me... that is what I think of you... these are My thoughts towards you... yes you are broken... but you are beautiful to Me.

Sometimes it's hard to think that in brokenness you can be found beautiful... but Jesus showed me that in His eyes this is a truth... we are beautiful to Him.

i am convinced that what i have been called to do by God is more significant then we know...

A Intercessory Missionary.

Who would have thought....
but as i travel and see and feel what is happening in the nations, (now in Australia), i am confident that we need God! In fact more then need... without Him we are but hopeless, running to and fro with no purpose but to get through each day and perhaps if we are 'lucky' we may actually smile at one point. Jesus never wanted us to simply survive life, Abba never intended for His children to wade through water not knowing how to swim barely breathing...

We where made to encounter the most High God moment by moment.

To be captured by His beauty and find overwhelming delight in all of Him. He created you and me to enjoy Him. To laugh with Him... to cry with Him... to share His heart with us and share all He owns with us and all we are with Him... EVERY MOMENT of EVERY DAY... He longs to be with us... to share life with us, ALL of life... but more then that He wants to give us ABUNDANCE in doing this.... the abundance & magnitude of who He is in us....that we would meet Him... talk with Him... share emotions... and stories with Him.

i know without my Maker my life is of no worth... without His presence... i am lost...

My prayer with Jesus today is that we all would be with Him where He is... we would know the longings of His heart... His tenderness towards us... His burning affections for us.... that His words would enter our hearts this day and reveal once more the length, the depth, the height and the width of His love for us, His beloved bride.

"Father, this is My desire that those who You have given Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory which You have given Me"

May the Holy Spirit open our eyes moreso today to the magnitude of Jesus love for us...
His Bride.

Come LORD Jesus Come.

it's my brothers birthday tomorrow..

he turns 30.

that definatly feels not so real... i guess it will be true tomorrow.

as you can see above i love my brother and i am happy to be here to celebrate his life tomorrow... well even today... everyday.

i thank God for giving me Jamie as my brother.

i pray that he would know the love of the Father, the love of Jesus, the ever present leading of the Holy Spirit... and the reality of the goodness of God towards him.

if you're reading this please pray for him... a birthday gift that would not go unheard by God.

ALWAYS FAITHFUL!!!

As the hour draw near to my departure date, a few realities set in that i didn't want to think about and some of my fears that had been hiding became evident as Holy Spirit revealed these areas of my heart.

Abba, in His goodness towards me, did not just want to leave these fears unveiled but He wanted to set His truth into my heart and give His peace to me.

i remember a few days before leaving, i was afraid of travelling alone. That night in the prayer room i knew i needed to be real about this before Abba, and ask Him to help me... more then anything at that time i knew i needed to trust who He was and place this into His hands knowing He would care for this. That night i was woken from my sleep, i knew it was the LORD He wanted to talk with me. Normally i am not the quickest at waking up but my spirit and mind was clear and alert when He woke me.

As the LORD began to speak into my spirit, i was aware of His might and power, He spoke three simple lines...

'Why fear? For I WILL be with you.

Why fear? For I AM going with you.

Why fear? For I AM coming with you.'

These words caused this fear and concern i had to flee... it had no chance to cause havic with in my heart or mind. I remember saying 'thank You LORD... WOW you certainly answered my cry quickly.' I awoke the next morning confident that i had nothing to fear for God WAS, IS and WILL BE with me.

Still a fox was to be found lingering within my heart, but my Maker my Husband was not going to let it destroy the work of His hand.

I was scared of leaving the safe place i was in, the safe and loving community i had found myself in... the Holy Spirit revealed to me that i was afraid of leaving this place for an extended season... He showed me a picture of my hands. They were holding tightly onto something, causing my knuckles to go white, for i was afraid to let go and leave this community. Jesus moved quickly to answer my questions and set at ease my heart. He sent someone to pray for me, a faithful friend and sister, in her prayer she answered all the questions i had only a few minutes earlier asked the LORD... only He had heard these cry's of my heart... i knew He was answering me and setting at ease my heart once more.

He spoke to me that He was the One who lead me to this family, into this sanctuary and that He would lead me to pools of water in the desert, He would place people beside me as He did here. I had failed to recognise that He was the One who had provided for me here... both physically and spiritually. He had cared for me and tended to the needs of my heart and that He would be the One to refresh me, sustain me and love upon me, He would care for me as i went from this place.

In His lovingkindness He was causing me to see and know that He was and is my security, SECURE IN CHRIST ALONE. Therefore i am in the safest place in Him... leading me each step... my foot in His footprint... i am in Him... safe and secure in Him.

SO where am i going?

Hey Everyone...

Through this blog you'll be able to track with me as i head off on this adventure with God.

I plan on letting my life be an open book, so to speak, for most of this trip. 

And as i see i will write and as God reveals i will type.

I believe God not only wants to speak to me on this trip but also many of you... and I believe He will give me stories not only for myself but also to speak to others... maybe somethings won't even really make sense to me... but that's because it's for one of you. 

My hearts desire is that i would know my Maker my Husband more, that i would know the heart of the Father more and that i would be sensitive to the leading of His precious Holy Spirit, being in constant fellowship with Him.

My prayer is that we all would be awakened an a greater level to know the fullness of God... to know Him intimately and to walk close to Him... this is my prayer for us all.

So i invite you to join me on this journey of greater awakening in to the heart of our King, Jesus Christ, the Jewish Man from Nazareth... God who walked this very earth to reveal His heart for us all.

My Trip begins right here in Tauranga, New Zealand but will soon lead me across many waters, through lands i have yet known, into the heart of many, but most of all i will be lead by the hand of my King.

i hope you will be stirred to seek God out more and more, while He still may be found.

in the waiting

Fifteen days until i leave this cosy, yet at times uncomfortable, dwelling that i have come to grow and love. So until then i find myself in the waiting... realising there is much to be either gained or lost while waiting... and sometimes both. i have decided i would rather gain a greater intimacy in knowing my Maker and i am ok with loosing all that stands in the way of this knowing. i would rather loose all, then waste my time running ahead of all that God has for me right here right now.

So i wait. 

i listen. and i watch.

And already He has eased my heart with His gentle loving arm, catching some foxes i allowed back into my heart... those little fears... the ones if left a while can destroy much of the work the LORD has done in my weak heart. Once again He reveals His love for me... the Faithful love that cuts away and captures all that hinders growth in Him.

Now my hearts at ease learning moment by moment to rest in Him, to trust in His unfailing love.

Yes there are still things to do, but i am no longer allowing those cares to consume me, for i am learning to direct my concerns to the One who cares for me most. i am learning that Jesus wants to take control of these things for me. And once again i find myself growing in love with my Maker... how could it be this God who became a Man, walked the earth to reveal His love for me... served me in every possible way yet still in such meekness He comes to serve. 

What love is this? God became a Man and died for me... rising again to intervene by prayer this very day on behalf of me and you... the King who came to serve... meek in everyway... 

What love is this? 

a love not of this world... nor of this age... or spirit... but one of holiness, of purity, of eternal value... bringing forth life in every way. This is the Love i want to know.